The Astonishing Color of After, signed and personalized by author Emily X.R. Pan

Price: $18.99
SKU: 9780316463997

McNally Jackson books is honored to be hosting Emily X.R. Pan on March 20, 2018 in celebration of her exceptional debut novel, The Astonishing Color of After. If you are unable to attend the launch event and would like to order a copy of The Astonishing Color of After signed and personalized by Emily herself, you can do so via the very webpage before your eyes. Please place all orders by 3/19/18, and detail your personalization request in the field provided. If you have questions about your order, Emily's in-store event, or how to delineate scientifically and emotionally between a brontosaurus and an apatosaurus, please contact

"Emily X.R. Pan's brilliantly crafted, harrowing first novel portrays the vast spectrum of love and grief with heart-wrenching beauty and candor. This is a very special book."--John Green, bestselling author of The Fault in Our Stars and Turtles All the Way Down

Leigh Chen Sanders is absolutely certain about one thing: When her mother died by suicide, she turned into a bird.

Leigh, who is half Asian and half white, travels to Taiwan to meet her maternal grandparents for the first time. There, she is determined to find her mother, the bird. In her search, she winds up chasing after ghosts, uncovering family secrets, and forging a new relationship with her grandparents. And as she grieves, she must try to reconcile the fact that on the same day she kissed her best friend and longtime secret crush, Axel, her mother was taking her own life.

Alternating between real and magic, past and present, friendship and romance, hope and despair, The Astonishing Color of After is a stunning and heartbreaking novel about finding oneself through family history, art, grief, and love.

Emily X.R. Pan currently lives in Brooklyn, New York, but was originally born in the Midwestern United States to immigrant parents from Taiwan. She received her MFA in fiction from the NYU Creative Writing Program, where she was a Goldwater Fellow. She is the founding editor-in-chief of Bodega Magazine, and a 2017 Artist-in-Residence at Djerassi. The Astonishing Color of After is her first novel. Visit Emily online at, and find her on Twitter and Instagram:@exrpan.